I am about to go to bed and I guess I just feel moved to continue to write. Maybe it's because I have defeated sin, by God's grace, especially when the enemy is really trying to tempt me. It's 1:40 in the morning. Samantha is at work and I am all alone here in my house. Tonight is the first time in a long time that I am faced with this situation. The devil is trying to convince me to click on some porn. What do I do? Nobody would find out. I even know how to erase the history of sites, l know if I do God will forgive me anyways, he loves unconditionally, My character is at stake, do I fall or do I fight the fight........I fight the fight like a champ. Sloppy Grace, NO WAY!!! Ephesians 6:10, I put on my full armor of God. I am a new creation in Christ Jesus, the old has gone and the new has come. I was bought at a price, I am a child of the living God, I am a warrior for Jesus. I speak to the enemy, you have no place in my life, my heart, my family. I am a married man. I committed to my wife and I am committed to my precious lord Jesus Christ. Man, I feel the prayers. I feel like my wife is praying for me write now. I know that I am capabable at falling any time so I choose to have accountability partners. The truth is, I new I would be faced with this tonight. I texted a very close friend of mine to be praying for me tonight. I told my wife to pray for me.......Let me speak on this for a minute. Samantha recently bought me a magazine and there was an article about Kirk Franklin about his battle with pornography. It was very interesting, he even went and told the world about it on the Oprah Winfrey show. You know what I have so much respect for him to do that. When I first found out about it, I was very disappointed. But after I read that article I had a different view about it. I appreciate his realness and honesty. It takes a lot of courage to be that open and vulnerable. But the part that really struck me is how his wife reacted. She stuck by him, supported him in his struggle, prayed for him. I thank God that my relationship with Samantha has that amount of trust. Our relationship is based on a solid friendship. She was my best friend then and she is now. I love you babe. You are my world, I will stay committed to you physically, I know for sure that won't be to tough of a problem for me. It's the mental part that is hard. Guarding your eyes is tough. Guarding your heart. It's an everyday prayer and battle. Holy Spirit guide me, give me the strength, to resist like Joseph. Got to Carry the Cross. Continue to keep me in your prayers that I will be able guard this testimony that I hold so close to my heart. Thanks, I appreciate it.
